Discouraged

So. It's been an okay week. I have been a bit discouraged as of late though. My motivation didn't exactly spike after I stepped on the scale. So I don't exactly expect to lose 10 pounds a week or anything but when I checked my progress for the week on Sunday morning I was less than thrilled with my .4 loss. yeah. POINT 4. I know a loss is a loss but I haven't really felt like I have made a lot of progress as far as everything else goes. I feel just as slumpy and pudgy. I suppose my one sign that maybe something is happening is my wedding ring. Seems like a strange comparison, but my wedding ring has gotten a lot looser. This could be due to the colder weather we have finally managed but I am one animated gesture away from having it fling off. Anyway, instead of taking my .4 and using it as extreme motivation to work my ass MORE I did the opposite and decided to make a batch of crispix mix. I effectively finished it off this afternoon. In my defense, I DID give my mom 1/4 of it and I DID add it into my calorie count on loseit.com and should still have been under calories but still.. not the best choice. I think I am in a better mood tonight and I will try to cut out as many carbs as possible and really load up on the proteins. Tomorrow's lunch? Romaine lettuce salad with tuna on top.

Anyway, enough about the weight loss venture. Like I said, overall I have just not felt myself for a couple of weeks now. I'm really not entirely sure why. It is just part of my general psychiatric pattern I suppose. For no reasons at all I slip into bouts of depression. Sometimes it is more mild. A couple of years ago before Edison I was a silent mess. We were in that 'trying with fertility medications but not getting results and dealing with the truth that another baby might not be possible'. That on top of finances and a number of other small things and I think I was just in a very dark place for a couple of months. Like I said, luckily I think I am good after just a mild couple of week interruption and can get some good things going again here to brighten things up.

In happier news I really do have the most awesome friends ever and this simple gesture was definitely something that helped perked me up. On Saturday I received a package from my good friend over at http://medicalartmofo.blogspot.com/ She is letting me 'borrow indefinitely' her old ipod nano. This is SO exciting and helpful for me! I bought myself some new ear buds, got my music synced up and used it the past few days at the gym. I am so appreciative! One of my other friends noticed the conversing about said package and said she wanted one so even though I don't have much I decided to pay it forward and made a couple of silly little things and mailed them to her. I will post a picture after I get word she has received them. I also really do need to send something as a thank you for the ipod because it made my week!

Lilly and Edison have been so bi-polar this week it is enough to make any sane person crazy. Lilly is awesome and well behaved and sweet one minute and then the next she is throwing a fit because she doesn't want to wear pants over her tights to dance even though it is 15 degrees outside. AAAH. Edison cant really be blamed for his disruptions because he is a little too young to understand but the kid is just bizarre. Bless his heart he keeps trying to run and play but his mind goes faster than the legs and he trips everywhere! He falls into walls, into chairs, flat out face plants it in the middle of the room. Oh my goodness I am screwed.

Tomorrow I am going to post pictures of the fun day we had playing with the snow we have. The kids loved the activity and will look forward to more snow for more fun!