Rant rant rant...

I think I was in a bad mood yesterday. Not a terribly bad mood, but just easily annoyed. That or it was just a  'one thing after another' day. Really it was pleasant with the kids. Lilly did pretty well at dance and listened. She only got upset when Charlie gave her a blue ribbon wand instead of [her favorite] purple. He explained that the wand chooses her not the other way around but that still didn't fly with her. Sheesh. After that we had an efficient trip to Target for baby wipes, bread, and other essentials. I feel like I am constantly needing things from the grocery store.

I got Edison lunch and down for a nap so I played with Lilly outside, surveyed the yard and flowers, and then got some things cleaned up inside. Edison is just all over everything and fell a couple of times from climbing on stuff. The kid needs a padded helmet.

I guess the things that bugged me were the wasps taking up residence in my porch. I have no idea where their nest is so I called orkin. They cant treat/kill the wasps unless they know where the nest is. Well that just sucks. I'm pretty sure I can spray the crap out of a nest so what good are they. Once again I am keeping my porch closed up on these gorgeous days and not utilizing its awesomeness. Rawr.

I have been looking more seriously at replacing the deck because Lilly has gotten hurt twice from it this week. My dad said that it might be possible on the very limited budget we can't really afford set up. That is a strain because anything money just stressed me out. Fast forward to a certified mail delivery and, oh yeah, the crappy stupid city sent us our bill for the repairs on a street next to the neighborhood. B.S. They are only charging the houses/neighborhoods who back this street. Because, you know, no one else in the entire city uses it or anything. It's not a MAJOR street on the NE side. ::::GRUMBLE:::::

I think part of my general annoyance at everything is that I am getting to that stressy need a change burned out phase I go through occasionally. I would love to do something fun with my hair, but I can't. I would really really love to go on an actual date with my husband for once sans children, but I can't. These are partly due to money, partly due to time constraints/no one to watch kids. Few people appreciate the fact that stay at home moms don't get vacation days. There is no PTO, no sick days, no breaks. It is just part of the job description and we are to be thankful for it because it is the choice we made in life, so deal. I agree with that to an extent but it doesn't change the fact that we get overworked also and no sympathy for it like others that are 'hard working in corporate america'. I have been trying to squeeze in park/outside time, cleaning, organizing and selling the kids old clothes, dance, dr. appt's., playdates, meetings, grocery shopping, menu planning and cooking, finances, going to the gym, and maybe seeing my husband for more than 5 minutes. I know that is everyone out there but a lot of those people can spare 10 minutes to make a phone call uninterrupted. Every time I get on the phone my children go berserk. I still wouldn't choose any differently, but really wish we somehow got a free daycare day at least once a month to go anywhere and do anything we need. That would be AWESOME.

Sigh, okay that little rant is over. Sometimes it just helps to put it out there even if no one/everyone sees it. There really has been a lot of fun this week. Edison adores running around the yard and park and Lilly has been doing the cutest stuff pushing her teddy bear on the swing and going down the slide with it. The kids play together and make each other laugh SO much. I have yet to capture this on video but hopefully can later.