Milestone!

Milestone in the weight loss department! I weighed in at 189.4, a loss of 1.5 for the week. It seems silly (and kind of sad) but I am so excited for this one. First of all it marks a 31.5 pound loss since I started really trying to lose weight last June and then I gained about 10 pounds back from Sept through Dec. So I have lost about 18 pounds since Jan. 1. Not quite the numbers I would have liked to be seeing, but I wont complain either. It's around a 2 pound per week average which is exactly what people should be at to more effectively keep the weight off. Anyway, the other reason I am so excited is because even though its only there by .6 pounds.. I am in the 180's. I just don't even remember the last time this was the case. I know it was at least 2006. I'm pretty sure I was 165-170 when I got married in May 2005. That is the range I am going for now. I know that once I hit it I will want to be less but I just want to be back to a point that is manageable. After being larger for years I would be completely content in a nice 12-14. Disclaimer: I'm not even into the 20's on sizes.. I do honestly just have one of the structures that will never allow me to be an 8 or anything.

In he kid and family department: we've had a pretty good weekend! We couldn't go last year to the SaPaDaPaSo parade (St. Patrick's Day Society) because Edison was small and I don't think the weather was great. This year I wanted to go and I didn't want to keep making excuses and leave Edison behind. He probably would have been happier with that decision but after he came to the realization we weren't going to let him run wild he calmed down a little. We also think he is like Paco in the fact that he doesn't like a lot of heat. AND BOY WAS THERE HEAT. It was around 80 degrees. IN MARCH. Amazing. Just gorgeous. I got a light sunburn which is actually awesome for my face but I put sunscreen on the kids so they were good. Lilly had a good time too as one of her friends Easton and his mom joined us. One thing that just really grinds on me is the rudeness of kids and parents today. Within 5 minutes of the parade starting all of the kids were 3 fee into the street. Parents were encouraging them to go further and get candy. One woman was telling her 12 year old daughter to just go get in front and get stuff. HELLO??? You want to push your older child in front of my teeny 4 year old for candy??? Go buy her a snickers and deal! I was okay with Lilly being where she was except for the moments that kids and adults were pushing in between us. I moved them real fast and said not to get in between me and my child, that I needed to be able to see her. And rightly so. The police were looking for at least 2 or 3 lost kids/parents at one point. With the exception of getting upset that the other kids kept getting in front of her Lilly had a great time at the parade and didn't even care about the little candy she ended up with. She really just wanted to be able to see the parade.

Today was spent outside. Edison was getting into absolutely everything. I know I am a broken record but I really want a new deck. He was so happy to run around on that and play. The only problem is the whole thing is falling apart so I just cant leave him to do that. If I had a REAL deck with a proper railing and no loose nails/boards then I could throw a baby gate up there and let him just play! Obviously I would be there too, but I wouldn't have to be chasing after him to make sure he wasn't going to get cut or fall off of the steps every 5 seconds.

I really need to go walk/run here. I did so much outside today that I just don't feel like it. I guess if I take tonight off I will make sure to force myself out EVERY single other night this week. I hate feeling guilty. I have gotten to a point with my exercising that I feel terribly guilty if I don't go. For one, I am paying for the gym. Okay so... Paco and I paid $50 a month for a gym membership for the two of us for over a year (well over a year) and we NEVER went. So I don't know why I feel bad about paying half that and using it 95% of the time. Anyway, I also feel guilty because I feel like if I don't have some kind of loss for the week it's because I missed a day of exercising. Sigh.