Goals

I feel absolutely disgusting. It is amazing how some things can put stuff into perspective. I swear I can feel the extra 2 pounds I have probably put on over the course of the last couple of weeks. I honestly don't know because I have decided not to weigh myself again until September 2nd. Then I will be back on my normal Sunday weigh routine. I know myself well enough to know how destructive I can be and I just know if I saw anything on a scale right now that would make me less than happy I would just back track more than I already have. The thing that amazes me is how I keep having to put myself in check. Just one short year ago I weighed 222 pounds. I have lost ~46 pounds so even if I have gained back a pound or two I still have a lot to be proud of and feel good about. So, what on earth did I feel like at 222? How did I not notice that effect on me sooner? I still remember the exact moment that I had the "how did I get to this point?" at the dr's office and the nurse so kindly said that she would count the weight as 221 since, you know, I had my clothes on. Because I would strip naked while being checked for a cold?  Anyway all of this because of a couple of pounds [probably] and I feel disgusting. I finally got back to running tonight and didn't even stop at my moms like I often do. I don't think I will all week. I am definitely getting back on track with watching my food. I have been awful about it.

I had to take Edison to the doctor today because last Wednesday he had some diarrhea and it hasn't gone away yet. His bottom is so sore that it is bleeding and it just is not getting any better. Dr. Mark said he does have a cold but it is nothing to worry about. He said that as far as the tushy goes he wanted me to get some probiotics to stop the diarrhea and maalox/water mix and beaudreaux's butt paste for each diaper change. I really hope it starts to work soon. He was in horrible pain in the bath even. I cant imagine 7 days of diarrhea. Poor baby. On the plus side (and please allow me a braggy mom moment again) Dr. Mark was really impressed and perked his eyebrows up at the fact that Edison can identify the alphabet, numbers, shapes, animals and their respective noises. He is such a smart boy.

The last week at the lake was pretty nice. It was windy and chilly the first couple of days but Saturday was gorgeous. We didn't get in the water at all even though the water temps were warmer than the air temps. The biggest shocker: I didn't even take a single picture. Okay, Paco and I went out and did some star trails, but I haven't even looked at them because I don't have a lot of faith in how they turned out. One awesome thing though is that we are pretty sure we saw a UFO. We were looking for shooting stars during the Perseid Meteor Shower and  there was a strange light in the NE sky that kept darting around and changing colors. It was weird. I did see 5 shooting stars on Thursday and 10 or so on Friday. Saturday and Sunday it was cloudy.

Okay, well on to the title of my post. Since I am feeling gross and whatnot and don't want to weigh myself until the first weekend of September, I at least need to make a goal for it. I want to lose 6 pounds by then. It is 2 pounds per week, which is easily attainable if I crack down and work my butt off again. This should finally put me at a solid 50 pound total loss. I just want to hit that milestone so badly. I had thought about getting family portraits done but the photographer I am looking at (who is awesome) would run around $500-$600. OUCH. I can appreciate the cost with my minimal photography experience, but it still hurts when you are thinking of forking it over.

So GOAL:
1. LOSE 6 pounds by Sept. 2nd.
2. Sew all of the reusable snack bags, bibs, and at least half (if not all) of the crinkle tag blankies for the craft fair by that same Sept. 2nd date.
3. get some of my veggies processed and canned and think of some new things to make and preserve.

I should think of a few more, but let's face it.. that is a lot to undertake in three weeks time considering I still have a bunch of other normal day to day tasks to complete! Wish me luck!