Still alive

It would seem a considerable amount of time has passed since last I updated. I don't know if I just don't have much to update or if I have too much.

My last post was about goals. I am happy enough that I accomplished most of them. I wont even dwell on the weight and exercise routine because it has to get old to read about and sadly not much has changed. I am still sitting at (or back down to?) the 174.8. I just cannot for the life of me get to that 50 pound loss milestone. The thing that then depresses me is that I still have another 10 to lose beyond it. I think my overall goal for that is to be around 162 by Thanksgiving/Christmas. That is getting to be a hefty order and I need to get my butt back in gear to make it happen, but hopefully the shortening timeline helps my motivation level.

My craft fair stuff is actually coming together really well. I am a full week ahead of the schedule I made! I have changed a couple of things up for my offerings too. Instead of the hot pads I am doing both tea bag wallets and coffee cup cozies. I also think I may do some burp cloths since I have bibs and wash cloths. I REALLY hope my stuff sells. I will post some pictures once I get some more completed.

Since last I posted Lilly started preschool. She is absolutely loving it and most days cant wait to get back the next day. There have only been a few times that she has not wanted to go to school for the day. It doesn't usually take that long to change her mind. I think she has her first cold since starting so hopefully by Monday she is over that, otherwise I guess we will see about that whole attending school thing.

Edison had his 2 year checkup and apparently grew 3.25 inches since his 18 month appt. WHAT? Is that even possible? Both of my kids are way too tall for any of their pants. He was also released from OT and referred to speech therapy. I cant decide if I want to bother taking him for the eval or not. I mean, he doesn't choke and he has actually started pushing his tongue around which he never did before. I just honestly cant afford more bills!

I know this post is long enough, but lets be honest, for me it's pretty short since it has been 6 weeks since my last post. One thing that I don't know is ell known or little known about me is that from time to time I just go in bouts of depression. It seems very cliche and "pay attention to me" of me to post it (at least that is how I feel if I am the one doing it, I in no way think there is anything wrong with anyone posting about depression). Anyway... I have just been in one of those slumps lately. Part of it is dealing with being busy and I know part is always the weight but a lot of the time I just cant explain it and don't even realize it until a couple of days coming out of it. This time it seems a little more lasting. I don't know what will 'cheer me up' but it is frustrating not having a lot of control over it either. I know that sounds dumb, but unless you have experienced it, it's hard to understand. I have too much to do for it to last much longer darnit!

Really that's about all I have for now. Hopefully it wont take me forever to update again, and hopefully I will have a little more pep in my step and just more perky things to mention!