Everything else I should be doing

The past few days I have been exceptionally wiped out for some reason and that correlates to bad mommy/housewife. I have reached a point where I just feel like I have so much to get done that I get nothing done. I HATE that. There are little things like sweeping the kitchen, eh.. what's another crumb on the floor. I haven't moved the unused sewing machine from the dining table so I have one and a half seats available to sit at. Eh, who needs to sit at a table for dinner. That also brings me to the sewing machine. This is one of the bigger tasks I need to accomplish. I HAVE to start working on my sewing projects for the craft fair. I have so many other non-craft fair items that I want to make and never get around to also. Boo and hiss. My house just seems like a disaster to me but I honestly don't know what to do with it. I need to have another garage sale to get rid of all of the crap in my basement and get some much needed money. There is another thing I need to do: FIND MONEY. I keep thinking of various ways to make and sell things for money but get stuck in the catch 22 of the aforementioned never finding the time to make the stuff. Argh. Vicious cycle.

The annoying thing is that I do and don't know what I do all day. I will often sit and enjoy.. okay I ALWAYS take my one hour in the day to watch my soap opera One Life To Live. The rest of the day is spent grabbing Edison from wherever far off places he is crawling or grabbing the things he is constantly finding on the floor. (I also need to vacuum again....). Lilly takes up the other big chunk of my day. I stopped with the Tastefully Simple because I just don't have the time to devote to it so I decided to be awesome and my share to save the earth and gave Lilly a bunch of the old papers so she could use the back for coloring. Remember the mermaids? It isn't just mermaids. Today we made kites. She also wanted me to make a cut-out of Eric from the Little Mermaid. I have no idea how to do that because I don't draw people well. I was also supposed to make some cut-outs of other things but flat out refused (bad mommy) and instead we just drew on them. Some of her stuff is really great and I love it. Others is literally one or two lines and then she has deemed the paper complete and refuses to draw anything else. ugh.

After all of that Paco comes home, I make dinner, we get the kids in bed (or bathed and in bed) and then I get to go for my nightly walk which takes me a little over an hour start to finish. I wish I could walk longer but I don't get home until 10pm as it is and I am just not comfortable being out walking past that.

So I know I have done other posts about what my day entails but I just hate that I am not super mom. I know I can be. It is what I want to be. So I am going to try really desperately to get at least 2 major chores a day done, kids entertained and hopefully some quasi 'pre-school' time in for Lilly to practice, dishes put away, and  room always picked up or at least free of little things everywhere. That really is not much to expect at all of myself. I feel really awful and lame for not accomplishing that anyway since it is my job. I totally fail at my job! I would fire me.